Not sure...

I keep falling off the wagon it seems, the whole idea of getting help was to deal with my alcoholism but it isn't working very well. I think what might need to occur is a different approach to daily living or a different kind of routine. Not sure what that is at this point, or how to even achieve it. I have some ideas, but I don't like any of them because I'm not sure if it keeps me active. Or if they will increase or decrease my ability to isolate myself. But I find myself, realizing that I have to do whatever is necessary to stay sober, even if that means doing the unthinkable in my life.