Distracted or Focused

As of late, people have been saying that I'm numb, like I don't react to things or situations anymore. And it's true, I am more focused and willing to remain focused on the important elements of my life. There is less chaos in my life as well, I'm not stretched or extended to the point that I'm stressing out. Life is beginning to make more sense to me, and I'm willing to literally allow more positive influences in my life. I don't necessarily see these changes but I know others see them because they are mentioning them to me a lot.

I don't want people to see me as focused or distracted, just that I'm working on myself more and spending less time worrying or thinking about the opinions of others. I honestly don't need those type of distractions in my life, I want to stay focused on myself for as long as I can. It's not selfish though, because I can say with a lot of certainty that I haven't really spent a great deal on myself in a long time, like since I was 19 or 21... it's always been about others. I suspect that is really pushing my will power or drive lately, because I want and desire more in my personal life.

I still have my emotional moments though, where I become to sensitive or take things the wrong way. But overall, I think the medication is keeping me level and not in a constant fluctuating. I'm still staying away from liquor and I'm still exercising weekly. I need to get back though into exercising daily, that is important to me. The same goes for me and practicing my bass guitar. This week, well starting tonight... it's important for me to just jump back into some kind of routine, not a routine that I'm planning in my head. I need to practice my scales more which I'm learning is an intricate part of playing music more proficiently. Either way, I'm continuously excited at the progress I'm making, even if I'm not necessarily looking for personal progress, if others see change than I guess I'm making positive changes.