I've learned in the past week or so that I have a problem with self-isolation or simply wanting to be alone. I've always liked being alone for certain periods of time, but it's a pattern of living that has to change. I don't have tough skin anymore because whenever I have a bad day or someone makes me feel lower than low, I want to hide and recover. It's hard to describe in real words how I feel, but often times I just go somewhere quiet with some liquor and reflect. Of course having liquor just dampens my emotions, it doesn't help me become stronger or smarter in how I deal with life challenges.
I'm making progress in my life, the process is slow and I have to fight for that inch to change things. Everyday is truly a challenge to keep going and moving forward. I think about giving up a lot, but then I'll think about the past and realize there is nothing for me. Going back to past ways solves nothing for me, and I doubt it solves anything for anyone else... there is just sadness, regrets, and isolation.
So I have to keep telling myself, I know it's hard, I know you're tired, but you have to keep fighting for that inch... do whatever is necessary.
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