No Quarter

Yesterday, I had a slightly awkward conversation with an old friend. It felt good to listen to some new advice for once, and I'll admit it boosted my morale a lot. Not sure if my old friend will remain in my life or keep me at a distance, like I currently do with all my friends at this point in my life. However, the conversation provided me with a different perspective on my current situation.

I've been able to determine who are my allies and who are my enemies. And just to be clear, I don't view people as totally my allies or enemies, or even neutral parties. I simply view the elements in my life that way, because in some cases I feel as though I've allowed the merger of negative influences into my life that have clouded the end results that I'm seeking in my life. Bottom Line, I have some serious fucking distractions in my life that are holding me up.

I'm utilizing the resources that are all around me in order to take stock of what I can use to my advantage, and what needs to be cut off or pushed aside in order to gain more traction. I need some kind of momentum so I can keep my thoughts and feelings on a positive track. I'm not going to say, I don't have regrets, because I have lots of regrets... I wish for more and desire more love in my life. I'm tired of fighting the wrong battles, and fighting for the wrong goals.

So, I'm basically telling the Debt Agencies, Loan Agencies, and Credit Agencies one thing... HELP ME, HELP YOU. They are my sworn enemies until I have the victory. And the same goes with anything else that is basically weighting heavy on my mind, I feel like a failure but I don't want to be a failure any long. So today, I have decided to wage all out war on $$$, and I'll approach each situation like Chess or a Strategy Game.

--- Venting Over ---