Tuesday, April 19, 2016

why?

Sometimes, when I feel like I do right now, I want to email her... just to talk and have a conversation. Maybe I seek comfort or just some familiar conversation.

I had another bipolar outburst today at work, I should've known from the moment I left the house that something would happen today. The older I get the more I find it almost hard to control or register my outburst anymore, its like some kind of emotional tick.

Sure, I know it's because something is missing... today... it was because of a topic I wanted to ignore because I knew it'd cause me stress, and so be it... it caused me stress... so I had a bipolar episode because of it... and I'm still having them even now.

There is too much I need to do today to have episodes... too much.

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