Be Nicer...

Don't worry about people judging you, criticizing you, or being jealous of you... just stand firm and tall in your belief.

This morning when I woke up, I felt as though I had lost so much time and energy this year working on myself. Sure, at times I feel like its been worth it, but at times I feel impatient because I'm ready to get started with moving towards things. But simply going in a direction isn't enough, I feel I need to know why and if the destination is the best place for me to be.

I'm trying to be nicer and more understanding towards myself, and I'll admit I hadn't been negative at all towards myself. Telling myself positive things, is important to my mental health. Yes, I still have bad days, but whenever I feel like I'm having a bad day... I have to find a way to turn it into a positive day. I have an array of things I do to help reverse the negativity.

- Play a board game
- Play on my Playstation 3
- Read a book
- Watch a cooking show
- Play with my dog

It's a small list... but I'm slowly adding new things. I'm trying to establish a new daily routine again, but I'm having difficulty with it because some times I add things to my daily routine that can have a detrimental impact on my mental health. And I'm still dragging my feet on setting up appointments for things, like my education and seeing a therapist. My excuse is... I'm too busy to do anything, but I know that isn't true... I'm just still wrestling with my feelings and my thoughts... and it is quite frustrating.