Yesterday, I had a moment of rage... it didn't cause me to explode or lose control. But those that saw my face knew I was troubled and extremely distraught. In order to cope with how I was feeling, I did some drinking and I ate a bit much. It's wild how I end up having these bouts of emotional distress that cause me to do things to my body that isn't positive, productive, or healthy. I gotta do better... but everyday is a struggle to make it through. It's like a daily battle is being fought internally and externally... I'm grateful for the books I have to help me see clearly, but there are times when I'm just someplace else mentally.
I gotta do better with things... I need to stop being so reactive.
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