To Become...

There was a lack of belief in myself, many years ago I believe I established a fantasy state of thinking. A fantasy in which I created a world that was based on fear and weakness. I ran away from things that were very hard, and settled for what I thought was convenient and safe. Just like I'll never forgive myself, I have to hold onto the belief that I'll never feel safe. It's a form of backwards thinking that can create a facade in our minds, that we are safe. And if we think we're safe for too long, we become complacent in our thinking. We drop our guards into thinking that people or buildings can keep us safe. But... if I can start thinking that I'm always vulnerable to attack, then I will always stay alert and aware of my surroundings. Always aware that at anytime there might be an attack. I have to walk the perimeter of my life, search out the vulnerabilities and fix them so they are secure.

People use to call me Mufasa based on The Lion King, but I was insecure and didn't really believe I could be all those things that people said I could be. I have to be mindful now on what I say, what I do, and how I think of myself. If I think of myself as weak, then I'll be weak & be destroyed.
But if I begin to see myself as STRONG, then I will do what is necessary to become and stay STRONG. I want people to see me as STRONG, so strong that nothing can tear me down, nothing can bring me down. I want to be so strong mentally and physically... I want to be able to live in a world in which I go after issues and obstacles that will make me a stronger individual person.

I HAVE TO BECOME LIKE A LION...