Self-Trust

"As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live."
- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, Faust: First Part



I know what I need to do... just a uneasy... and I don't want to be scared... I just want to do it... but I'll have to start... one step at a time... until I get where I need to be... but I need to define those core values first... and that is taking some time to complete. And I want to do it right this time!

But at the same time... maybe the depression is because I'm afraid... afraid of acting... afraid of doing the right thing... afraid of success... hell... it could stem from basic fucking fear.

I'm going to try something today and tomorrow though... even though it make take a damn fucking week or longer to see... but I wonder if I did what I had to do... or faced my fears daily... if I'd sleep better... if the world would seem like a less horrifying place for me.