Even though sometimes I don't like to mention it or admit it to myself, I have Bipolar Disorder. I hate being bipolar because I always have episodes at the wrong times, and when the episodes hit they are usually unexpectedly and I rarely have any idea or clue as to what triggers them. I use to think that my bipolar episodes lasted a few days, but I'm starting to believe that they are lasting for weeks or even months... and that I'm more clueless now then I have ever realized. I use to think that I'd just be depressed and overwhelmed at different times because of the situations in my life. But once I started to open my eyes, I started to realize all around me that the episodes have been very frequent and more active.
I dunno I'm rambling as usual... I need to think and concentrate my thoughts but I'm having a really hard time doing so. I sense I'm going round and round again... or a cycle as Lisa pointed out to me a few weeks ago.
Not sure where to go right now... but I have to get my life and personality together... or I'll never move forward like I should. Moods are a problem, but being clueless about my problem is even worse.
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