Things aren't getting better for me psychologically, they seem to be getting worse. I'm unsure and uncertain about what I'm supposed to be doing with my life right now. I don't really feel like I'm doing well in things, and I feel like I'm stepping on everyone's toes and not really grasping simple functions or instructions very well.
I want to change, but I feel like it will never be quick, easy, or even challenging I just feel lost and somewhat confused about my purpose in life. I'm trying to find my passions, but nothing seems easy or even doable in my life. I'm doing things now that I don't want to do, and its making me extremely frustrated and unhappy. I want to talk, yell, and scream about my overall dissatisfaction with my life, but I feel stuck... as if I'm destined to continue heading towards this downward spiral, and that I'll lose sight of what I want to do with things.
I feel I'm headed in the wrong direction, everything feels foreign and uneasy. I hate feeling uneasy about things, but I feel like I'm suffocating and that I can't breathe... and that I will lose everything in my life. Somethings I've already lost, and I can't hold onto things anymore... I just want to cope with all these changes... and I can't. It almost feels like I'm sabotaging my future by making irrational and impulsive decisions... everything is just moving too fast again... and I don't know how to get a grip on anything.
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