Realizing

I remember waking up today, telling myself that things had to be different. And when I got to work, I realized that I had to work more efficiently and start closing issues quicker. No one had to tell me to work better; I just knew that I had to work better so that I could complete things in a timely manner, so that more things are taken off my daily work list. I'm trying my best not to spend too much time worrying or thinking about others, I just want to close issues in my career and personal life as quickly as possible. See, I don't ever want to retire; there is no greater pleasure than knowing that I've accomplished something awesome. But I have to make it more concrete and more solid everyday... I have to push my moods aside and just take care of business more. Managing the daily tasks that are in my life are sometimes more challenging, because I have to wrestle and dominate my BP (Bipolar) moods all the time, sometimes my mind just goes into crazy areas. I understand and know my triggers, but if I can continue to manage things better in my life, I know I’ll continue to realize what I’m capable of accomplishing, but I have to force myself to continue the fight DAILY.