Effective

"Follow effective action with quiet reflection. From the quiet reflection will come even more effective action." - Peter F. Drucker

I want to be more efficient in life, I want to complete things and know that I'm making progress that will continue to shape the journey that is in front of me. Often enough, I feel as though I'm not capable of making the kind of changes that are needed, because I feel so overwhelmed by all the things changing around me. I have issues all around me that need to be resolved quickly and decisively, but I can't seem to get unstuck because I'm not willing or able to organize my life in a manner that allows me to see things clearly and objectively. In a very short while, I'm going to get married and I’m not going to just be thinking of myself. I'm going to have someone else in my life that will need to be take care of, love, cherish, and provide for. I woke up one day and realized that all my hard work, dedication, and determination had given me what I wanted, and there are times that I feel utterly overwhelmed by it. I'm not going to say I wasn't prepared for it because I was prepared, but maybe I didn't comprehend that just because I won a single victory that I can relax and catch my breathe. I have to step up my game a whole lot though, I can’t just relax and breathe right now, because there is always someone else that is working harder, faster, and more passionately then me.

Recently, I told someone that I had been wrestling with the notion of giving up on playing music, because I didn’t feel I had the energy, passion, or drive for it. But in the back of my mind, I realized that my passion for music was very strong, but my focus and discipline to master my craft wasn’t. Trying isn’t enough, I have to be willing to do something every single day to practice, implement, and master the skills needed to become more in life. I’ve become very complacent with my thinking, and believing that I’m putting in my best and strongest effort… but deep down I know I can do more, and that I can accomplish more elements in my life if I truly want to.

It’s not easy to admit that we’re flawed and not as strong as we want to be or even claim to be. Often times enough, I feel we have to admit that we can become more, if we’re willing to become more. I’m not going to TRY and make a better effort in my life, I’m going to make damn sure I make a better effort. Everyday going forward, I’m going to make sure that I’m more busy taking care of things. Because I honestly believe that I don’t have the time anymore to say, I’m bored or that I don’t have anything to do, because there is plenty of things in my life that need to be done and that are in need of personal attention. So I’ll do more than TRY, I’m going to DO.