Leaving Love Behind

During war, I'm always remind of the loved ones that are left behind. When the warriors have to go out into battle to fight for the protection of those that they love. It's never easy leaving anyone behind, it's also never easy knowing you may never see them again. War is the destiny that awaits the warrior, and War is the drum that is always beating within. It's not about being angry, bitter, or upset its simply about doing what needs to be done in order to fight another day. Whether it be days, weeks, months, or years; often times we have to sacrifice the love of the ones that have captured our hearts in order to do what we must.

I make no apologies for the decisions I'll have to make this year, I've already begun to imagine the sacrifices that I'll have to make in order to remain focused and driven. I've imagined the people that I care about being confused by my choices, and my motivation is VICTORY on the battlefield. Life is a battlefield, yes I want to be loved, desired, and admired by a woman... but none of that really matters until I have the victory, for that is the only way for me to have true peace in my life.

In 2011, I tried to hold on too tight; made promises that I wasn't sure I could keep, and made promises I so badly wanted to turn into action. But something was holding me back, maybe it was the fear of the unknown, maybe it was the fear of being free. Well, right now it doesn't matter what my intentions were; all I know now is what the results of those consequences have led me. They've let me onto a field of battle where the enemy is very clear. And if I have to sacrifice friendships and relationships in order to be victorious than so be it.

FOR I SHALL HAVE THE VICTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!