Death-ground

Eventually, we all have to strip away all the fear, doubt, and masks. And go to a place that is foreign and utterly desolate. In some ways we just have to re-create ourselves in an image and fashion that is filled with all the aspects that we could only imagine in our nightmares or dreams.

"I have decided to create a sense of urgency and desperation, and place myself where my back is against the wall and fight like hell to get out alive."

Today, I officially started war against my enemies that have caused me nothing more than pain, agony, isolation, and loneliness in 2011. My enemies range from people, institutions, emotions, and certain aspects of religious doctrine. The list can become longer, but I don't think it is even relevant. The point is its time for Total War... the complete annihilation & destruction of a specific enemy that has caused me nothing but endless misery.

This morning when I woke up, I decided to go after one of my Student Loans to pay off a debt that had been dragging me down. Yesterday, I called them to try to find a way to lower my payments, but they were unwilling to find any middle ground or compromise. It's utterly disgusting though when you try to compromise with your enemy, and they simply find a way to screw you later on. You can't come to any kind of compromise with anyone that you owe a debt to, they just want your money... no matter your current state of living.

Never allow anyone or anything to place you up against a wall, and if someone or something should put you up against a wall in a threatening manner, then you have a legal right of nature to strike them down. 2012 is WAR, TOTAL WAR! You have to be willing to strike them down without mercy, compassion, or forgiveness. Someone called me last night, telling me that they were living on the streets... or simply trying to play on my emotions... I had no care in the world for their situation. Because in the past I've helped them, got in debt for them, and I have nothing to show for it.

Be careful in 2012, try not to make the same mistakes that you've made in 2011 or 2010. Don't let anyone walk over you like a piece of trash on the street. Take a stand, be vicious in your desire for respect, love, and happiness. But also don't apologize for anything that goes against your principals and values.

This is about Self-Directed Warfare... about going for the kill... not about dragging anything out hoping that things will be better later on. I'm going to be specific, methodical, unwavering, and totally unmerciful towards anyone or anything that stands in my way of Total Happiness & Love.

May God have mercy on anyone or anything that stands in my way.