Drowning!

No matter where I go, No matter what I do, and No matter what I say... I always feel like I'm trapped or in trouble. All day I've felt like I'm in trouble, like I'm going to end up fired, poor, broke, or just unable to take care of myself. I just feel like the world is against me, and that I live in a very selfish world as of late... everyone wants what they want, and what I want is becoming some distant memory and I have to fight hard to see it. 2012 wasn't supposed to start off like this... its Friday... and all I really want to do is get drunk again so I don't have to feel the anxiety and pressure on my chest. It's like someone just came and pointed a gun at my face and said... you are my hostage until your debt is paid.

It's a painful feeling what I feel right now... just this feeling like I can't breathe and that I'm drowning because I have this huge weight tied to my ankles.