At 33 yrs old, I know that after living for so long that I've developed some cracks in my life. Cracks are unavoidable because as we get older our body ages & thought process becomes corrupted and usually we are exposed to harsher elements that can chip away at the foundation in our personality. Some cracks are obviously more prominent on a daily occurrence then others, but even those cracks started off as small cracks that became wider with time and constant pressure. And if we're not aware of the changes in our lives those cracks can become holes that can no longer be repaired, and eventually have to be replaced. So one should always inspect their lives and learn to Identify the Cracks.
Our emotional hearts will always suffer a more painful crack, or even a significant size hole in the place of cracks; but I don't believe it can ever be broken unless we desire for it to never be repaired or replaced. And because our emotional hearts are more prone to attacks on a daily basis we sometimes are unable to defend or protect it from attack. And that is where identifying the cracks comes into place, because we all need to be able to protect ourselves from the influences that can totally disrupt and destroy the barriers that keep our life grounded.
Every night before I go to bed I play a Military Strategy game called “Total Annihilation”, it’s the only strategy game that I play on my computer and even though the game was made in the mid 1990’s, I find it very influential when trying to understand the challenges that I’m faced with in my life. A few weeks ago, I was playing a match in which the enemy was able to take out my main installation because of one small crack. I found it very frustrating that I had to put the game on pause to study my previous moves and to understand how my enemies were able to get the upper hand. I also had to put the game on pause because I was so angry that I thought I would end up punching my computer monitor. I don’t like to lose and I also don’t like to lose to the A.I. (Artificial Intelligence) that I’ve beat numerous times in the past. Yet, at the same time that I was losing I was impressed and felt excited that the A.I. was giving me a good challenge. I thought about calling it a defeat but I didn’t want to lose the opportunity to possibly win the game. Eventually I did re-evaluate my situation, fix the crack, and shift the momentum of the enemy to win the game. But the battle had a significant impact on my thinking and life because I realized that because of a small crack the enemy was able to slip inside my main base and inflict heavy damage. I spent many days studying the moves of the enemy, and even trying to understand where I went wrong; and then it hit me… I didn’t fix the crack, and then that crack became hole in which the enemy was able to inflict the kind of damage it needed to try and win.
Yeah, I know I’m extremely analytical but for good reason because the more I analyze the more I can see things that others probably wouldn’t see. Cracks can form in every area of our lives, in our families, friendships, relationships, career, health, finances, and even in personality. Our pride often times causes us not to notice that we have cracks and that we need to fix aspects of ourselves, and sometimes our pride can cause us to be blind and naïve to the reality that our life is at times very flawed.
I am FLAWED and this situation is WRONG!
This morning, I started thinking about how to fix the cracks in my life, and I realized that the only way I’m going to fix anything, is by identifying the cracks in my life. There is always something in my life that feels like it has to take top priority, some would say that my spiritual life with God has to be top priority that view is valid but not realistic. Because you can have a strong spiritual relationship with God whether you are rich or poor, loved or unloved, protected or defenseless, and hungry or satisfied. However, when you go to your favorite place to talk with God, he or she might instruct you to go down a different path in your life. But even if you’re walking on that journey you might begin to realize that there are holes in your shoes, you aren’t protected from the environmental elements, and that you’re broke. So it helps to look at the holes and cracks as simply everyday problems in your lives that you want to change and fix. Now with any kind of repairing that has to be done, you have to figure out what the actual specific problem is. And I mean look at it from a structural or defensive (military) aspect, and don’t involve EMOTIONS or IRRATIONAL THOUGHTS into your thinking. In my personal opinion when people involve emotions its like seaweed that drags along the hull of a ship which slows it down and keeps it from running smooth through the ocean. You want to look at the issue very specific and understand that this causing the cracks.
Now, I could go down the list of issues in my life that have been profoundly damaged but that won’t solve anything because they are too generic and broad; and I know that none of the categories in my life can be seen as structural or defensive-able because they are categories not specifics. In order to understand and identify the cracks you really have to look at your team, the players on the board that make up the foundation of your life.
What I mean by players is… who are your True Friends, who are the people you associate with, who are the people that influence your life, who are the people that can have a greater impact on your life, who are the people that you confide in, and who are the people that have no problem knowing yours flaws and how wrong you really are?
However that aspect is a crack that I’ve that needs to be totally fixed, replaced, and overhauled, so I will share more on that subject in my next blog.
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