Feeling Trapped...

"Those who speak of progression but are afraid of change are self-repressed and therefore unable to reach any further than their eyes can already see."
- Criss Jami, Killosophy


I've tried to be as patient as I can be, but I know that my power instrument is my voice, I've been speaking to myself about changes, but I know that is just part of the problem. I have to start telling the people around me what I expect of them. Yesterday, I felt extremely claustrophobic, like I was being suffocated, or even trapped. I don't like feeling that way, because whenever I do... I just want to bolt and runway. But I'm feeling like this at home and at work, for a few years its been a problem for me. And last night, I just wanted to runaway, I wanted to go away for a few days or nights and just recover.

I know why I'm feeling this way, but I'm hesitant to speak about it because I don't want to come across as uncaring. But a part of me, wants to be more selfish because my mental health can take only so much of it. I'm trying to be patient, but I don't know how much more I can handle.