Acceptance is hard... but whatever... it's how it is... I try to explain, I try my hardest... and it never helps... I'm alone in this... in my own head. I wish I could be normal again... before everything became a daily nightmare. It sucks, because I know I push people away... I push them so hard that it makes them cry, makes them feel rejection, makes them feel unloved, and unwanted. I hate that I do it because I don't want to do that, but I don't want to hurt them... and I know that is all I do... is hurt the people that I love... it's unavoidable. I'll never be normal, I'll always have to fight the inner darkness within myself.
Why does this episode feel the worst... why is it causing me so much emotional & physical pain?
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