Time is...

"Time is relative, it can stretch and squeeze, but it can't run backwards." - Interstellar
It's funny, I use to say how much I enjoyed pain and such. But whenever I feel pain or hurt... all I do is look at my bicycle. It's only when I feel really strong intense emotions that this happens... and trust me... I don't like feeling it.

The only thing these feelings does to me is remind me of what I lost, my poor choices, and my mistakes, and they remind me of where I'm currently at. But I don't lose hope... I don't get depressed... I refuse to get depressed or sad. I just ride my bike... and I scream it all out... sometimes I stop and look at the sky and scream. I don't think its a scream though... might be something more primal.

I don't understand a lot of things anymore... especially my emotions. But I'm grateful for having a bicycle though, because whenever I feel like all these intense emotions... I have to go for a hard long ride... because just sitting still solves nothing for me. Sitting still is like waiting, and I refuse to wait. Every fucking day is another day to work hard for another inch towards something different.

Oh, would you look at the time... time for another bike ride.