Rapid Fire

It didn't take long for my manager to start in on all the things I had missed while I was gone for a week. But now that I'm back in the saddle, I feel myself reverting back to the way I was feeling before I left... overwhelmed and lonely again. I can't stand being alone, because its like my emotions and moods go through a rapid fire stage. Even being in my apartment last night felt the most isolated and loneliness experience in the world, I kept waking up wanting to be held or to hold someone... obviously holding a pillow is not the same as holding the softness of a woman. And you can only kiss a pillow for so long until you realize it doesn't kiss you back in the night.