Today, I simply fell off the wagon which is another way of saying I did something I shouldn't have done. But the only reason I did it was because I didn't have the heart to say "NO", but at the same time I felt manipulated because my thoughts and emotions were literally clashing against each other. And whenever my thoughts and emotions are clashing together like two opposing waves, it causes major conflict and disruptions.
I don't like feeling manipulated by individuals, anytime someone is able to simply contact me and ask for a favor and I give in, I begin to see that person as a threat that has to be eliminated from my life. I don't like giving people the boot from my life, I think the way I approach it can be down-right cruel and brutal, but I don't like feeling manipulated. And maybe manipulation isn't the word, maybe I'm simply a soft-touch. Yeah, I'm a "SOFT-TOUCH"... I'm one of those guys that is care free and easy going. But based on the way I feel right now, I wish that person hadn't contacted me at all. Because I was very clear towards that person, do not contact me asking me for a favor, and I feel a tad betrayed because this person decided to do it anyway.
Ugh... I hate this feeling!
