Every Single Day... I look at it... wondering when it will arrive and wondering how much I have left to utilize. You can look like I look if you so desire, just simply put your face to a mirror and look straight into your eyes. If you're focused you can see the essence of your soul, sometimes it can show you everything you don't always want to see, and often times it can show you exactly what you need to see in order to survive another day.
Each day is a blessing and a curse depending on which ever result you're looking for during that day. Currently, I feel like everyday is a blessing because I know that I have people in my world that have love for me. But I also know that I'm tired of waiting to touch these people, I want to touch them, hug them, love them, and feel their essence. And in some odd way I feel like life is robbing me of the life experiences I can be sharing with them. Every night when I go to bed, before the sleep takes me into the long deep, I go over my mind what is around the bend, what new adventure this life will take me. I don't wish for anything anymore, I don't hope for anything anymore, I simply find myself being swept up in the currents of life, and I hope that whatever is around the bend will be pleasant to my eyes.
However, I know that life never supplies us with simple answers or results, sometimes in order for those results to become valuable we have to put forth an effort that shows our true qualities or true nature so to speak. This is why every night before I go to sleep... I take a long deep stare into my eyes, in order to hope that when I wake up in the morning... the world will provide me with good fortunes so that I can be motivated to more one step closer to whatever is around the bend.